Tegan loves Cheese-Its!

Most people that know mw know that I prefer natural things over processed stuff. Lately I have been really bothered by an itchy scalp. So I decided to try a new shampoo hopping that it would help. I decided on a shampoo called Naked Naturals. The shampoo is made with Keravis, a plant protein, that makes your hair 7x stronger when using the shampoo and 3x stronger when using the conditioner. But I really bought it because it doesn’t contain chemicals like DEA or laureth sulfates that irritate my scalp more. Naked Naturals has a few different scents like Awapuhi and Lavender or Aloe Vera and Chamomile. I got the Citrus and Keratin kind because I love the scent of Citrus; I think it is very refreshing. The smell of the shampoo lasted along time. I could still smell it after a long day at work. It feels like naked naturals shampoo has also helped out with the irritation on my scalp too. My head doesn’t feel quite as itchy. I think choosing a natural shampoo was a great decision for me. Next time I am going to try the Awapuhi and Lavender kind because it is for color treated hair. What shampoo do you use on your hair?

You were my protector
But you protected me from no one

I opened myself to you
You used my weaknesses against me
You held them in my face and made me hate who I was

Now I hate who I am
I want to be me again

I had an eventful day at work this morning. About a half hour after I started we had some lady pass out. She was checking out at the kiosk and I hear the person checking her out say “Miss miss are you okay? Do you have low sugar?” I looked up and seen her wobbling. So I started to run around to her to catch her or at least cushion her fall (she was much bigger then me). When I was half way there she went down and hit her chin on the check signing platform. When she came too she kept saying she was sorry, and that she was pregnant. I called 911 and they talked to her till the paramedics came. Apparently she had just gotten out of the hospital this morning for being dehydrated and having a bit of the flu. She though it was a good idea to come shopping after all that and not eat for the morning. Worst part is she drove herself to the store. Can you imagine if she had passed out while driving? When the paramedics arrived she complained of having a headache. I just though to myself “you better hope that is all you have after that fall and hitting you head on a concrete floor…” I hope she is okay, and the baby too, but I must admit that was pretty stupid of her.

I finally upgraded my wordpress! I decided to do it because some of the plug ins I downloaded were not working. It was much easier then I though it would be! It took less then five minuets to do. I even had Tegan pulling at my leg while I was doing it. Check out the login page.

There isn’t one particular event that has triggered this post but many…

I will be the first to admit that I am a brat and I can fly of the handle with my temper. But why must men feel the need to put there hands on me to “calm me down” or make me see it there way. More then once I have felt strongly about something and because of that a guy has grabbed me by my arms to talk to me. Or pushed me away because they didn’t want to hear what I said (most likely because I was right). When a guy grabs me it make me not even give them a chance to hear them out. Or it makes me feel even stronger about what I am trying to get across.

So I guess I am asking the guys that come here why do you do this? And the woman do you have this happen to you?

Mark came home on his lunch break and told me Wendy called the store and asked if Mark would be working today. She was informed that Mark would be out of the store from 3 to 5. Mark didn’t quite leave at 3 and Wendy and the kids came in before he left. Mark tried to say hello but Wendy acted like she didn’t hear him and shuffled the kids off to the back of the store.

I don’t think that was necessary at all. Wendy has the kids thinking I am trying to take everything away from them. In all reality I am just trying to get what is rightfully mine. Especially since I was treated like I wasn’t my fathers daughter by Wendy. I am her so called daughter but she can’t trust me in the house or garage alone! But I am sure she can trust Kayla and Steven in there oh yeah I forgot her new boyfriend too!

At work yesterday the top manager called me in to his office. I couldn’t think of why he was calling me in there for. I honestly thought it was some thing bad. But I couldn’t come up with anything I had done recently for him to call me in there. I have been busting my ass due to we have been really short handed. He called me in because a customer had written a comment about me to the store. I had helped an older guy the other day because he came to me and said his sugar was low. When he told me that I ran to the back room and got a can of pop out of the machines. After that I finished his shopping list because I didn’t want him walking around and taking the chance of passing out. I guess I didn’t expect to be called in to the office and be thanked by the top manager cause stuff like this happens a few times a month and I have never been thanked before. I guess the customers never have written a comment before. I thought it was normal customer service that was always expected out of us.

Life has been bitter sweet for me. Work has been good even though we have a major issue with staffing. But me and Mark haven’t been so good together.

I got hired on full time official even though I have been working 40 hours for two months. Hello paid vacation! I could sure use some paid time off of work. I need to get some things at the house worked on. And it would be good to just have some time away from the stress of working in retail. In the same day I also got a job offer that would pay $3 - $5 dollars more then what I am making now. Which would be a great wage because I don’t make too little now. Plus it would be between 50 - 70 hours a week. Hello fat pay checks. But I am not sure if I am going to take it. I don’t want both me and Mark to be away from Tegan so much. And I don’t think that Mark would quit his job to sit home with Tegan.

Marks friend has worked at the pet store for some years now and has been in the process of trying to buy the pet store long before Mark got hired there. It is now said that the push for Marks friend to buy it has gotten even stronger. When the business does switch hand, I am sure Mark will get a better wage and more hours. But I am not sure how long that will take. Like I said the owner and Marks friend have been bargaining over the sale for a few years now. Hopefully it happens soon. Then maybe I can stay at home and really work on getting my own business back up and running. That would be nice.

Life has many choices for me right now. Which one do I choose?

In my dream I bumped in to Wendy and her new boyfriend (one of my fathers so called friends) while me and Mark were out and about. The guy had sunglasses on so you really couldn’t see his eyes. But he was wearing the facial hair that my dad has always worn since I can remember. It just seemed to me like the guy was trying so much to be like my dad. It made me really up set and I started screaming and going towards him. Mark grabbed me pulled me away. I remember just feeling so upset that he was reaping the rewards of my father years of hard work.